We could've been anything, everything but now we're nothing

I've been waiting for a special missed call from you, so that I could have an excuse to give you a call.
But you didn't. Not even once, in this four months.
I'd be lying if I'm gonna say that you're totally gone from my life.
If you are, I wouldn't be here.
I used to get mad at myself or even you whenever I think about what had happened between us.
Now I can only think of the happy times we had.
And each time I do, it never fails to bring a smile on my face.
Because it was all worth it, and I really do hope that I was once someone special who brought the same smile on your face.
The smile I can never get from anyone else, but you.
I don't want you to remember me as the girl who made you sad, emotionally tired or even angry.
I just hope that I'm remembered as the girl in your life, whom you met as a stranger to someone close to you.

Haha, I don't even know why I'm typing all these when you won't even read this space anymore.
Maybe, just hoping that you will.


I really want to give you a call.
To ask about how you've been and all.
I miss you and I really do.
I've been thinking about the 48 movies.
Wasn't that a promise?
Didn't you tell me that promises are not meant to be broken?


Can you let me know your birthday wish so that I can get you something or make it a special one for you?
Other than getting me to fuck off from your life?
HAHAHA stupid, I know...


Childish thinkings. Unneccessary assumptions. Desperate ways to get you back. Ciggs. Clubs. Irritating messages.
I guess you've had enough.
Haha this is why I chose to delete all the entries, and make this the one and only one that you can read.

Again.
Thanks for being the one.
You're one in a million and I was glad I found you.




Ps. All I want to do is find a way back into love, and you're part of it.